"People think I'm mean to them, but they have no idea how mean i am to myself"
🔸I used to be like envious to every achievement of everyone around me like i wanted to have what they had, I've always thought to myself that I will be at this point only, I always put limitations, I'm exploring nor try things as if it's so very unusual for me to try. I'm always hiding on my comfort zone and seeing things very difficult.
🔸I just remembered when i was in college, I never wanted to be exposed too much into the crowd, though relationships were good ( friends, girls, girlfriend) but you know the feeling that you loathed yourself b'cause you can't even show off. And this happened when I was being assigned as a Leader of a group to report some certain topics (i forgot, i think it's all about colon problem... Ahm?! Nvm!) then i started to move my ass not because I wanted to impress but because ahh!, I needed to do this! Just like that. Then I worked hard on it, pieces by pieces, paged by paged, I created my own powerpoint, I told to myself I can do this by my own without the members' help (they thought it would benefit them) and that time we used powerpoint for reporting. And then the day came, I went to school as early as possible and made myself ready, it's my first time to face the crowd though actually they're my classmates, and I prepared my slides and that time our prof was Dra. Adarna (actually she's my crush and i have this assuming thought that she likes me to). I stood infront of them, my prof was at my left side holding a pen and a piece of paper for the grades what surprised me much was that my members were still not in the class, though their presence was not needed at that time but I'm the one who planted this so I'm gonna harvest this well. I started talking, well It's me reporting then there's questions throwing at me. Oh God! Good I was able to answer it well then afterwards my members came, Dra. Adarna checked them one by one then asked them where they have been, why I'm the only one reporting, what's their participation, and nobody answered, Dra. got mad and told them to continue reporting were I left and I should sit down instead. Yes! I'm done and this was the reward I've recieved, not the grade but this! Just sat and watched them suffer (im not bad, im just happy) . I finished and succeeded, I was thinking to myself that I'm weak but i proved it wrong.
🔸 So, I really felt achieved on that day and what I told to myself that we can't conlude things from what we actually see cause we'll never know what kind of battle we are facing. Sometimes outside we're laughing but deep inside we're hurt. They said, "though you can't make everyone smile to change the world, but making one person smile, it can change their world"
25 November 2015 by Waldo
🔸I used to be like envious to every achievement of everyone around me like i wanted to have what they had, I've always thought to myself that I will be at this point only, I always put limitations, I'm exploring nor try things as if it's so very unusual for me to try. I'm always hiding on my comfort zone and seeing things very difficult.
🔸I just remembered when i was in college, I never wanted to be exposed too much into the crowd, though relationships were good ( friends, girls, girlfriend) but you know the feeling that you loathed yourself b'cause you can't even show off. And this happened when I was being assigned as a Leader of a group to report some certain topics (i forgot, i think it's all about colon problem... Ahm?! Nvm!) then i started to move my ass not because I wanted to impress but because ahh!, I needed to do this! Just like that. Then I worked hard on it, pieces by pieces, paged by paged, I created my own powerpoint, I told to myself I can do this by my own without the members' help (they thought it would benefit them) and that time we used powerpoint for reporting. And then the day came, I went to school as early as possible and made myself ready, it's my first time to face the crowd though actually they're my classmates, and I prepared my slides and that time our prof was Dra. Adarna (actually she's my crush and i have this assuming thought that she likes me to). I stood infront of them, my prof was at my left side holding a pen and a piece of paper for the grades what surprised me much was that my members were still not in the class, though their presence was not needed at that time but I'm the one who planted this so I'm gonna harvest this well. I started talking, well It's me reporting then there's questions throwing at me. Oh God! Good I was able to answer it well then afterwards my members came, Dra. Adarna checked them one by one then asked them where they have been, why I'm the only one reporting, what's their participation, and nobody answered, Dra. got mad and told them to continue reporting were I left and I should sit down instead. Yes! I'm done and this was the reward I've recieved, not the grade but this! Just sat and watched them suffer (im not bad, im just happy) . I finished and succeeded, I was thinking to myself that I'm weak but i proved it wrong.
🔸 So, I really felt achieved on that day and what I told to myself that we can't conlude things from what we actually see cause we'll never know what kind of battle we are facing. Sometimes outside we're laughing but deep inside we're hurt. They said, "though you can't make everyone smile to change the world, but making one person smile, it can change their world"
25 November 2015 by Waldo
di·lem·ma
\də-ˈle-mə also dī-\
noun
🔸We humans actually always experiencing difficulty in desicion making especially when you want to get the best of both world, but in reality we can't, because of many things (e.g. Reasons, outcome, Risks, etc.) and the most hated thing we don't like to feel is "Regret" aftermath of the decision you've made. But let me put things this way, in every mistakes we commit, we actually learned from it thats the good thing per se, we will not be empty hand after all, but once you've failed you will come up with what we called "regret" and you will tell to yourself, "sana yung isa nalang" or "sana hindi ko na ginawa".
🔸We came up with so many situation where in we say these things to ourselves, we deliberate but still we can't get enough of one thing, we want more, and your satisfaction is on high state that you didn't even think the risks, you will gamble until you experience the harm it caused you. FAILED!.
🔸But i could say, failure is just the beginning of our adventure, we indite a very good analysis to our life which what we knew that we will caused us a very good outcome, we're not weak, we are just afraid of exploring things that's why we are putting second thought (which i think the other word for dilemma --- cause i remembered myself thinking twice before putting it to final conclusions) on every situation. We are powerful, we are excellent in our own ways, don't confused your mind, try things to spice up your life, people may bring you down but what's important is that you didn't quit and you keep on fighting. 👊🏼
23 November 2015 by Waldo
\də-ˈle-mə also dī-\
noun
- : a situation in which you have to make a difficult choice
🔸We humans actually always experiencing difficulty in desicion making especially when you want to get the best of both world, but in reality we can't, because of many things (e.g. Reasons, outcome, Risks, etc.) and the most hated thing we don't like to feel is "Regret" aftermath of the decision you've made. But let me put things this way, in every mistakes we commit, we actually learned from it thats the good thing per se, we will not be empty hand after all, but once you've failed you will come up with what we called "regret" and you will tell to yourself, "sana yung isa nalang" or "sana hindi ko na ginawa".
🔸We came up with so many situation where in we say these things to ourselves, we deliberate but still we can't get enough of one thing, we want more, and your satisfaction is on high state that you didn't even think the risks, you will gamble until you experience the harm it caused you. FAILED!.
🔸But i could say, failure is just the beginning of our adventure, we indite a very good analysis to our life which what we knew that we will caused us a very good outcome, we're not weak, we are just afraid of exploring things that's why we are putting second thought (which i think the other word for dilemma --- cause i remembered myself thinking twice before putting it to final conclusions) on every situation. We are powerful, we are excellent in our own ways, don't confused your mind, try things to spice up your life, people may bring you down but what's important is that you didn't quit and you keep on fighting. 👊🏼
23 November 2015 by Waldo
"Life has no backwards, only forward"
🔸 i love this, always i put it on my mind so i could remind myself that in every decisions i make, theres no point of expecting to have a plan B because in life, once u did something, its already written in your history. Plan better, sabi nga sa isang tv program, u need to "think before you click".
19 November 2015 by Waldo
🔸 i love this, always i put it on my mind so i could remind myself that in every decisions i make, theres no point of expecting to have a plan B because in life, once u did something, its already written in your history. Plan better, sabi nga sa isang tv program, u need to "think before you click".
19 November 2015 by Waldo